Goodbye 2018 | Thank you.

2018, well... What a year you've been. I've definitely had some wonderful moments with some great people. I've too, have had a wild ride down to the worst of what life has to offer too. But in the end, it's how you rise and stand your ground, right?

It's most definitely been a rollercoaster of a year and here's why; 

• I got to see 3 INSANE concerts; Speaking in Shadows, Taylor Swift & You Me At Six, three of the most amazing nights of my life! 

• Passed my driving test, although my confidence is a bit shaken from an incident on the motorway, I'm determined to get on the road in 2019!

• I turned 24... now I'm halfway to being 25 and still getting ID'd for energy drinks and paracetamol haha! It's funny because everyone has a shocked reaction realising my age... :-)

• My mental health got really bad to the point I lost myself. Now in therapy, I'm discovering who I am again and couldn't be more thankful to be here. It gets better, it really does. 

• October took a turn for the worst when I was rushed into hospital because of an ovarian cyst rupture causing me to have surgery and two weeks off work... hardest time of 2018 but very very thankful for it. 

• Despite a difficult year trying to learn how to live together, I and my partner had our second Christmas together in our first home. Not only that but got to spend our time with family too, which was very very much needed!

I'm thankful for you 2018, you've not been all that bad but that's life. I could keep going as this year has brought plenty of smiles and tears, ups and downs but overall, I am glad to be here, to see in another New year. So let's make it a good one.

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND ALL THE BEST FOR 2019 

- Jaydee xo 

New Year, New Resolutions

Happy New Year!

Wow, that's Christmas put to bed for another year, Welcome 2018! Well and truly baffled at how quick time is just slipping away. Oh well. Another year full of goals, memories, journeys, and happiness. So exciting to say the least, I wanted to share some of my resolutions. I did one last year and I shocked myself with how much I achieved.

• Be more positive - Getting inside your own head is not a nice feeling. I struggle to stay positive with simple situations so achieving this resolution is #1 on my list.

• Get Professional Help For My Mental Health - Don't want to go too much into this topic as it's quite tender and fresh cut at the moment, but at some point, I want to seek professional help when it comes to my mental health. More so, for strategies to learn whenever I feel anxious, depressed or not myself. 

• Set More Goals - This is something I say will happen but never does. I am my own worst enemy at times which sometimes holds me back. I want to achieve more goals that I set and do more exciting, new and spontaneous things throughout 2018. 

• Say Yes More - Being too scared to say yes to more things soon catches up with you. 2017 I didn't take risks to say yes, I said no instead. For 2018, I want that to change to be able to go for a night out, or on a coffee morning with the girls, shopping and not feeling guilty, spending time with family/friends and taking more opportunities by the hands and just do big things.

• Find myself - Sometime's I don't even know who I am, or what I'm here for. Throughout this year I want to find that sense of security of knowing who I am and what my purpose is. Here's to the crazy adventure! 

Those are my resolutions for this year, nice and simple. When I first wrote it, it appeared I had more things I wanted to achieve to say I've done rather than develop on the things nobody talks about. Well, that's going to change. Stay tuned. 

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xo

What a year you've been, 2017.

2017... Where do I begin? 

Thank you. Thank you for being challenging to say the least. Throughout I have had good moments and not so good moments but let's just focus on what truly matters. So at beginning of the year, I set myself some resolutions and for once, stuck to them. Not going into detail every single thing I have achieved or what has challenged me so I'll just list a few. 

I Graduated from the University of Lincoln with a BA Honours Degree in Film & Television. It was a great opportunity to have, to walk across the stage within the most beautiful Cathedral, ever. I can say I finally have my degree & my best friend, alongside my family were there to witness it. Forever thankful. 

I met my other half and ever since we went on our first date, we have been together. 10 months down the line and we are about to move in together in our first flat! So exciting yet so scary!! 

If you told me at the start of 2017 I would be moving in with someone I'm madly in love with, I'd have laughed in your face. Look at us now, January 2018 we will be seeing each other every day (help) haha. 

First tattoo actually happened. I kid you not, I barely even flinched. I think this was mentioned in my March favourites but it's a fantastic memory to look back on due to the fact, I had broken ribs at the time and it was so spontaneous. "Hakuna Matata, what a wonderful phrase" if you sang that, I'm proud.

I left a job that was destroying me as a person, literally. I didn't recognise who I became as I dedicated the best part of 16 months of my life to serve the community whilst being slammed to the ground. Let's just say, leaving was the best thing I ever did. Finally have my life back and definitely much happier, healthier and more relaxed.

Had my surgery and battled a tough recovery. As hard as it was, it has made me stronger for the better. I see it as an opportunity to keep myself healthy while still recovering and not to fall downstairs into a brick wall again hahaha! But no, the whole experience was definitely eye-opening and I'm ever so thankful to have gone through what I did.

Achieved amazing things. Such as taking part in a relay drive for Children in Need again for the second time. Although I didn't drive the relay, I drove home and had so much fun in doing so. On roads I've never been on the challenge was gratefully accepted and achieved. I am due to pass on 18th January 2018 after a previous cancellation (due to poor weather) and let's hope I nail it!

All in all, 2017 has encountered so many good memories I will cherish forever. Although going through harder times made me want to give up, I kept going and I'm glad because tonight is all about putting the difficult times to bed, embracing the amazing moments and looking forward to the future. 2017... again, thank you for being a whirlwind of good and bad, I've achieved more than I expected. 7/10 resolutions to be exact which is fine by me. Here's to 2018, let's make more incredible memories and kick ass!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! <3

Thanks for reading!

Find me here: 

Instagram: @jaydeekelly 

Twitter: @crashl0nelystar 

xo

Top 10 New Year Resolutions | 2017

Hiya everyone!
Long time no post... Firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :) I have been quite absent recently over the last two months and I feel like due to being so busy I have neglected my blog, but now I am focused and ready for what this year will be like.  So, I tried this New year's resolution thing last year and the year before that etc. and I have neve really had any serious goals that I wanted to achieve whilst studying at University, so entering this new year I have been going crazy to share these resolutions/goals that I want to achieve this year. 

1) Be happy
Over the last two years I have been learning who I am, why I used to feel like I did, why people would leave, Why I was like I was... etc. & I realised that I just wasn't happy. With myself, or what I studied/where I lived and so on. THIS YEAR that changes, for the better. My biggest goal for this year is to be happy. Happy with my body shape, my personality, my interests, my job, academic career, relationships/friendships etc. You get the point. All I want is a good year full of positivity and happiness so I will be making that my top goal for sure!! :)

2) Post on my blog more
I am so guilty of neglecting my blog once or twice... oops. If you check what I've posted in the past, you'll see I didn't really post much last year due to personal issues, but when I did they were super long haha. I want to be posting more content based on lifestyle, health and fitness, beauty, fashion etc. Although I don't really know much about beauty or fashion, I want to collaborate with awesome brands and try new things.
I also want to update my photo quality for this blog and maybe move onto posting video's for a haul to describe what I want to say better... there's just so much but for now, I want to concentrate on my blog and even create a new layout for it to make it cosier.

3) Take 2 whole days a week off Social Media
I have already gone 3 weeks without my Facebook account as I deleted that. Long story short, people were getting extremely annoying by posting rubbish for attention or acting like they're a politician or "facebook famous", like I'm sorry but those types of people are the worst. I removed myself from the website and I couldn't be happier! I feel more at peace without it for sure.
I decided on this resolution to just relax and have more "me time" as it's a good way for the brain to stay healthy without being stunned by a phone/tablet/laptop light. & It helps you sleep better which makes you feel more relaxed and happier the next morning! 

4) Graduate University 
So I didn't have the best final year at University, I tried my absolute best and my tutors marked me down for whatever their reasoning was, which led into a resit and my University didn't allow me to walk the stage in my September graduation due to my results "not being released" BUT... got released the day after my actual graduation, so my anger towards that was the highest it's been as I felt it was unfair. Which it was, but I'll discuss that at a later date. So that's why I'm graduating on 18th January 2017, but I'm glad I still get to walk across stage and collect my degree paper thingy ha! Happy ending in the long run :) 

5) Travel 
I've never travelled abroad, so I need to change that as soon as my passport arrives. My family couldn't afford it, but we still went away in summer, which is just as good right? :) 

6) Lose Weight 
This for me is a personal matter, which I will discuss in the near future within a separate post BUT I just feel like I need to get my health back on track, tone up my body, eat the correct foods and then lose the extra weight that is tied to me. It's not because of the society we live in as I don't let it define me. Like I say it's for more personal reasoning. 

7) Pass my driving test & buy a car 
Everyone's dream right? I started my lessons at 19, I went to university which revoked the chances of my lessons taking place. It was on/off since 2013 until late 2014 and I just wasn't confident. I began again last year (2016) and now I'm so close to finishing which is UNREAL. I've achieved so much within my driving lessons such as; A relay drive for Children in Need & A two hour drive to Sheffield and back (excluding motorway) which is close to where I live. So happy I had the opportunity to do that :) 

8) Read more books 
I think it's important to read, no matter what it is. I say that because it helps relax you, gives you some enjoyment in losing yourself in someone else's story and lets you escape real life for a while. Which is great :) 

9) Do more activities 
My aim with this is to either do Tough Mudder which takes place throughout the UK, take part in The Great Northern run etc. It's keeping active, healthy and in shape whilst achieving something great, raising money for the less fortunate.

10) Get my Mental Health better
It's not been the best over the last few years and It stops me from so so much! This should be at the top of my list but oh well. I just feel as soon as my head is in a better place and I ain't feeling like I do, I'll find my happiness :) That's a big step for this year and I'm excited to see a difference :) 

So there are my top 10, I have waaaaaay more but I'll be here all day, writing a very long post. Let me know if you have the same or similar resolutions as I'd love to hear some. :) 

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Instagram: @jaydeekelly 

xo

December Favourites | 2015

I genuinely thought I would get potentially better at posting on here, but turns out I haven't at all. Sorry for the delay, "better late than never", right? ;-) I love writing long favourites like this, long but fun to write!

My favourite thing about December, was finding this quote. It set my mood for the month and made me so much more excited for 2016. This speaks to me in so many ways, because 2015 was indeed one of the worst years I've experienced and this post gave me so much hope to remain focused on the important things and set goals to achieve! Safe to say, I'm getting there, I hope ;)

 One thing that annoys me more is rough feeling feet! It actually makes my stomach turn. Throughout December I had to use this a lot as my feet were so dry and icky... I've not looked back since. Heel Genius, is by far one of the BEST foot creams I've used. If you have dry feet/skin do use this, it sends your feet so soft and removes dead skin and bumps (you'll know what I'm on about, if you walk a lot like I do) I highly recommend it :) 

So for Christmas, My brother's girlfriend bought me a Lush gift set and this shower gel was in it. I won't lie it is amazing BUT I wouldn't rate it all that much, as the smell kind of gives me a bit of a dizzy spell, however.. It does leave my skin remarkably soft! I'd love to try other Lush shower gels within the near future, for sure :)

I say this a lot in most of my posts, I suffer from having VERY dry skin. Which for me, sucks really bad. Simple face wash, has been my saviour all throughout December and has actually cleared my skin from dirt and blackheads and unclogged my pores. I am OBSESSED! Definitely need to purchase some more as it's my go-to facial wash. I also picked up the Mitchum roll on deodorant, and it smells like baby powder. Is that weird? I love the smell of it ha, and it stops you sweating and being smelly better than most products If I'm honest. I also have many people tell me I smell like baby powder when I wear it, makes me laugh every time ha!! If you want a new facial wash or deodorant  then check these out! You won't regret it!

 My mum was teasing me about a Christmas present and she found these. I think they're replica's and tbh they are AMAZING. Unfortunately I don't actually have them...yet. BUT my mum is still on the hunt for me. She loves to tease me about shoes aha. I definitely fell inlove with these because of the heel, I'm not a feel lover but these... WOW. It doesn't matter to me if they are 'real' or not, I was raised to appreciate what I had and I most certainly do! It's not about the price tag, or the brand, it's all about comfort for me :P 

Throughout December Starbucks was my go-to as it was super cold! My favourite christmas drink by far was the Honey and Almond hot chocolate, like O M G. If you've not tried it, In December, check it out! I'm already excited again haha.

Whilst being at university, Lincoln opens their own christmas market. IT IS AMAZING and I love going to it. In december I went with some friends and we went on the Ferris Wheel. Safe to say I was SO scared... :( and my housemate kept spinning it which made me more scared. The weather was such a let down though, as it was blistering cold & rainy! But that didn't stop us. These are literally the only two photo's I managed to capture & my friend bought £10 worth of sweet, such a funny memory :')

After a morning appointment at the hospital, me and my housemate managed to capture some pretty amazing photo's of the Lincoln Brayford. This was probably half 9 in the morning if not earlier and it was unbelievably beautiful :) 

Who doesn't love Ice-skating? I DO! if you read my posts, you'll know that I adore Ice-hockey. Myself, Andrew and Alex all went ice-skating and it was amazing, none of us fell and it was such a good way to have a laugh before leaving for Christmas Break! Really wish it was still here, as its cold enough..ha.

I finally get to announce that I'm going to be an aunty for the first time. This is my little nephew at 25weeks and 2 days! :) Definitely one of my favourite moments of December and I'm so excited for him to be here!! ahh just look at how little he is :)) so cute!

So my step-dad proposed (again) to my mum on Christmas eve and it was the cutest but funniest thing I have ever witnessed, I was most definitely crying with laughter! Don't ask about the outfit because I really can't explain why he's dressed like that... ha.

Christmas presents from my brother! :) 

The last lot of photo's were from when I went home from University for Christmas. I was re-united with my little princess pepsi (black cat) and my big ol' fluffy ginger man, sisco. They BOTH wouldn't leave my side lol and they cuddled me for hours! 

I also included a few photo's from christmas day, It was all about family for me, and my cats.. I got some AMAZING presents and I'm extremely thankful to have such great family to spoil me rotten! Lucky to say the least. Throughout the holidays I drank a lot of wine and ate a lot of junk! No shame at all.

I also dyed my hair (photo above) and it looks like I have highlights. I am planning on going a brown/blonde colour this year, as after all my natural hair colour is intact Blonde!

 (the colour is mystic purple and you can purchase it from boots for £4/5 :) 

Hope you enjoyed this post <3

Xo

(DO NOT TAKE MY PHOTO'S WITHOUT ASKING, ALL WERE TAKEN BY ME & ARE ALL MY OWN UNLESS STATED OTHERWISE!)

New Years resolutions #1 | 2016

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! <3

Hope you all have had a brilliant start to 2016! :) I recently decided to set up LOADS of goals for myself to achieve throughout the year. First one I chose is reading more books. I mean, who doesn't love a good book?! 

I more or less, read around a few authors but I thought I'd start a collection and read people's work because well, one day, I'd like to have my own book on a bookshelf in WHSmith or Waterstones! I chose to go for something/someone I haven't heard much about and her name is Lindsey Kelk. From reading the synopsis of the book(s) it practically drew me in as-well as the set locations for each book. I've never read any books from Lindsey Kelk, but I will most definitely review once I have!

After having read the '50 Shades of Grey' books back in 2012, I decided it was time to purchase the 'Grey' book which is in Christian Grey's perspective, giving the story a deeper twist and a more detailed understanding. I don't think the film did the books much justice, as it missed a lot out, but nonetheless, it's a good film to watch.. :P 

I much prefer reading books before films, but with these choices, i feel like they won't be made visual reality just yet, so I can expand my time with reading them throughout the next couple of months. 

What are your favourite books and New Year's resolutions??

Xo

2015 | HAPPY NEW YEAR.

2015, hasn't been the best year for me at all and I'm not writing this for sympathy. If anything, I'm writing this because although I lost some great people forever, I lost 'friends' & got used, manipulated and broken down by people I was once close with. Big shout out to those people, because I'm stronger than ever :) 
This year has been nothing but drama, stress, anger from beginning to finish and there's so many things and people that are being locked within this year and it's for the best. I'm not interested in what people say behind my back, you have fun staying behind me, I'm cool with that. I'm no longer associating with people who cause uncomfortable situations for myself and those around me, who act like they're not the problem etc. I don't want to continue living my life in that vicious circle. Have fun staying in this repetitive cycle but count me out. It's being locked in 2015 because I'm done with the people who do nothing but cause hurt, sadness and drama. It's not how I want to live within 2016. It's all thats happened this year and I can't wait to see the back of it. 
My point of this post is, I'm moving forward with my life and I no longer have the time of day for those who drag me down, who hurt me maliciously and who hold my 'past' mistakes against me. I have a great circle of family and friends, I'm finally back on track with my studies and also have a positive outlook on life for the first time in years. I don't want anyone in my life who tries to stop me living peacefully. Unfortunately some things / people will NEVER change, it's not surprising at all but some of us actually want peace and happiness without others ruining that for their own satisfaction. I'm most definitely not saying 2016 will be a "New me" because it won't. If anything, I'm going to learn from this mess of a year and cut out all the bullsh*t people and things that don't / haven't made me happy. I've finally found the courage to close the door on so much, because there's no point in being angry anymore and some situations aren't worth dwelling over ever again. 

2016 starts now, more adventurous, ambitious, PEACEFUL and happy than the past two years. I'm glad this year didn't go the way I wanted it to, because I've learnt so much about those around me, about myself and about life in general. Got to say, it's not been an easy year, but it's finally over and I've never felt so happy to go into a New Year. Here's to those who stuck by me this year, thank you so much. Regardless of all the negativity, I've had some upbeat amazing moments in-between it all :)

I have so many goals in 2016 that I want to achieve, my blog being once of them. Hopefully in a years time, I'm writing so many positive things, not bashing on the year ;) lol. Have a great start to the New Year everyone, I hope you all find happiness throughout 2016 :) 

Thanks for reading, if you did :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! <3